First month done!

One full month of boot camp is behind me, and what do I have to show for it? As of today, June 13, 2011, I have lost 12 pounds and 5% of my body fat!!  61311061311_post

I had hoped that losing 12 pounds would be more visually dramatic, and that is so disappointing!  The numbers keep me motivated to continue the torture because at least they are going in the right direction – finally!! I have put in this kind of effort with exercise many times before without any changes, so I will take any objective indication of progress as winning!! patience

But there is some good news with progress that I posted on Jeff’s Facebook page, and then he reposted on the JTS page:

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Down 7 pounds!

Another week of boot camp classes, and I’m ever so slowly starting to see some objective and measurable results from all this effort.  That is truly the only thing that helps me stick with it through all the agony!

Monday I posted on Facebook about my weight loss thus far, and had a nice vote of confidence from a good friend of mine!

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Wednesday was same old thing … and burpees still suck!

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And Friday, yeah, Friday was the running day that I will never forget for my entire life.  I don’t know how my brother runs marathons, I just don’t get it.  The WOD today included 5 laps around the block, which each lap is about 1/3 of a mile.  I seriously thought I was going to die!

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But Jeff is right, how long did it take before I started, and how far ahead am I now after a month of this? I am still struggling to do the workouts, and I still feel frumpy, fat, out of shape, and disgusting – but I’m here and I am doing it anyway.  It totally kicks my butt and I wish it would take chunks of my butt off with each “kick” – a visual representation that adequately reflects this extreme effort would be appreciated at some point!

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I didn’t puke, or faint, or die after this week – so I will keep going! Thank you Jillian!

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Will I ever be an athlete?

I went to Matt’s track award ceremony for pole vault yesterday, and his coach had such great things to say about him and how he just blew them away with his learning curve just starting out this year for the first time.  I sat there listening and was so proud of him – and hoped someday that maybe he would be able to listen to someone important talk about my skills as an athlete.

Matt and his track coach at Kentwood High School

Matt and his track coach at Kentwood High School

I guess it could happen, but I’ve never, ever been even remotely considered athletic; even when I was on the track team my freshman year of high school (because I basically sucked!).  So I guess I am officially on record making a wish that my son could someday be as proud of me as I am of him for athletic ability and effort.

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So I went to boot camp again today with sore muscles and knees, and some glimmer of hope that results I am dreaming about are actually possible if I just keep focused and determined to succeed!

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Then later today I heard my mom was having emergency surgery because she may have thrown a clot after the minor surgery she had earlier.  I know what is ahead of me genetically if I don’t fix this now, I am all the more determined to move on from the pain and make significant long-term progress in weight loss and maintaining a healthy weight for the rest of my life.  I want to be there for my kids, and my future grandchildren.  I want to be active and healthy well into old age, and I want to enjoy getting there without weight-related health problems like my mother is dealing with.  Aaaaaaaaaaand, there is also this …

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Boot camp and knee problems

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I don’t know what I am doing wrong, or why karma is turning on me, but my knees are killing me.  My right knee is particularly bad, and is now snapping when I move it.  It starts to really hurt when I have it bent when sitting or driving, and when I straighten it out it clicks/snaps.  Box jumps, squats, lunges – could be any one of these or all of them.

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It was a nice rest to have Monday off, it gave me a little time to heal/recover.  We saw Hangover II and that was pretty funny, not as funny as the first one but it was still better than most sequels are. The rest was not long enough to eliminate all my aches and pains – maybe that is the reality I face from now on trying to get into shape …

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Sometimes I feel like I am going to die when I am doing the workouts, but I’m not dead yet …

 

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I really thought I would have lost some weight after two weeks of killing myself, but not yet, although I know I am getting stronger.  If this doesn’t work for losing weight, though, I don’t even know what else to do.  I guess I should care more about building muscle and being healthy, but it would really help me psychologically to also see some weight reduction after all this hard work!

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This week has been a challenge, but I’m sticking with it! There is no boot camp class on Monday because of Memorial Day so I guess I have a little break, and I am really mixed about whether that is a good thing or not.  I don’t want to go, but I know I NEED to go, and I really, really want to win the challenge contest.  I guess I could do push ups etc. at my house. I just need to really watch what I eat over the holiday weekend …

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First running day in boot camp

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Why wasn’t the Rapture yesterday instead of tomorrow, then I wouldn’t have had to do this insane workout that I am still shaking from hours later …

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I seriously don’t know if I will survive this 6 week transformation challenge if there are more workouts like this one. FML!!!!!!!!!!!

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I got my nails done in the afternoon, and particularly enjoyed the champagne at Pauline’s, and the pedicure foot massage! I really needed some serious pampering after this morning’s workout …

 

The Six-Week Challenge

Just as I was starting boot camp at Jowers Training Systems, they were advertising a six-week transformation challenge (the details and announcement can be found by clicking here). I signed up for it, and my Groupon membership was extended until June 29 so I could complete the entire 6 weeks.  As if I didn’t already have an incentive to do this, now the chance at winning $1000 has just motivated me more to really give it my all and win the transformation challenge!

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Facing the cold, hard, nasty truth …

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One of the worst days of my life – the day of reckoning …

255 Pounds - May 2011

255 Pounds – May 2011

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255 Pounds – May 2011

I am mortified looking at these pictures, just mortified … My body is nearly 50% fat … I cannot even look at the pictures, it isn’t even me, it can’t be …

My first day at bootcamp was so humiliating that words cannot quite do the feelings justice.  Let’s just say that the starter exercise of 46 burpees (in honor of one of the member’s 46th birthday) just about killed me.  I felt so stupid and frumpy compared to everyone else.  I felt like how I might imagine someone climbing Everest would feel, and it took everything I had in me to finish the workout that day.

And three days later I’m so sore I can hardly move.  I couldn’t even walk up the stairs on Saturday.  I don’t know how I got through the workout today, I guess I was just in a mental stupor from the weight and measurements taken before class.  I’m determined as ever to lose weight, but this is going to be more of a challenge than I ever dreamed I would have to face.  If boot camp doesn’t work, I don’t know what to do.  All I know is that every movement I make causes intense pain …

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I started, and I hope it turns out great …

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First Day of Boot Camp Class

grouponWhen I saw this Groupon, I knew I had no excuse – I had to try what so many had told me worked so well – even though the mere thought of showing up, let alone trying to do any of the difficult exercises, would be one of the greatest challenges of my life.  I knew I had to try because if this didn’t work there was nothing left to try … I purchased it in late April 2011, just before my 44th birthday, and spent the next few weeks planning for how I would attend all the way in Tacoma three days per week.  I called Jowers Training Systems and made my appointment for the first boot camp class at 9:15am on May 13, 2011 – Friday the 13th – wow …

Facebook status update for first Boot Camp Class

Facebook status update for first Boot Camp Class

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This class just about killed me, and I know it is going to be a long, difficult, challenging, and frustrating road ahead of me to continue.  The people at JTS are nice and supportive, and I appreciate how non-judgmental the vibe is, but I feel like a fat buffoon trying to do the workouts!  It was one of the member’s 46th birthday, and we had to do 46 burpees to start the class.  It took me nearly 30 minutes to get through the burpees, before I could even start the “real” workout.

Effin kill me now! I couldn’t remember ever feeling more humiliated and embarrassed for what I had become over the last decade, and how I had just let myself go to such an extreme …

And I really, really, really hate burpees!

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The wording in the Groupon made it seem like the boot camp class would be 2.5 hours, but it was actually only 45 minutes – but oh those 45 minutes are pure torture nonetheless … as I imagined what it was going to take to get my body back, all I could think about was King Theodon at Helms Deep …

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It took me longer than I thought it would to get there in the morning, so I am supposed to do the initial weigh in, measurements, and before pictures at the next class on Monday morning.  Can’t wait …

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